I dont feel like doing anything. I feel like im going all these hardships for nothing.
To you people who think what i've been going thru is just another simple and small matter.
But..... try getting yourself hurt over and over again. Having your love ones leave you.
Not just one. But mostly all.... over and over again. It really hurts. and it accumulates to be a ball of HATRED.
How could one be so heartless? It's so amusing that i alwiz fall for girls like you. but now what i see is this...

I could even save the one i loved the most. I let her die right in front of me

Simply write one

Should the time turn back... bla bla bla... BORING!!!!
All of us started from here. We were destined.
We cannot change what we were. But we should change what we are.
Frowning. Thinking hard... Replay? Not required.
Moving on? That's overrated. I'll stay right here waiting.
Who says that there are only two roads.
Even if there is , who says i need to choose?
Who says that walking is the only way?
I dont care what they say..... I wanna linger upon these feelings.
I love you... But i hate you for making me love you

You know nothing

Putting effort into something yet you never get the same return.
Then you begin to fret and strut and not know what to do.
You blame others but ppl ask you to reflect upon your ownself.
That's when you get confused and lost in the dark.
That's what i feel
I reach out but no one will be there to catch me.
I stopped cryin, just wanted you to look at me.
But you wouldn't.
Attention seeker? Yes. I am. Whats wrong in that.
Ppl in this world live to be acknowledged by ppl - To be accepted.
Do you know what it feels like to be treated like a social outcast?
Ppl looking at you as if you killed someone precious to them.
What do you know about broken families?
What do you know about shattered hopes?
What do you know about losing ppl you treasure, over and over again?

You know nothing, I tot i needed pity. You need it more for you are a fool to not know the degree of evil this world can inflict on feeble human hearts

Go Away

Why won't this feelings fade away?
I wanna stop the pain
But God just put you in front of me every time
It's Raining. Heavily.
Are my thoughts being delivered to you
My sense of pain that transgressed the fires of Hell
My love that will never be answered
My scars that would remain forever
My crooked mind which thinks of nothing but forgetting
My hands that are weary from punching against walls
My legs tired from running away
My eyes swollen red from crying
My cheeks water wet from the tears I flow
My ears addicted to emo songs
And why?
because what's the use of 9A's when you are not by my side to share the happiness
What's the use of a happy ending where people cry
What's the point of smiling in tears
What's the point in a Love that will never bear fruit
What's the point of an existence that people despise
I drink no more. But i might smoke....
I will change. be it bad or good. I will change.
But this time.... the tides will turn.
You will one day feel what i feel. Let the power of hatred engulf you

Secara Konklusinya

What should i feel now? Relieved? Sad? Pissed? The real answer is . nothing. Let the flow of time reveal the secrets of the future. Everything is determined. There is no point. All i can say is. Congrats. I knew it from the start. Who would love a beast like me? You two were made for each other. I was just another obstacle in your journey of life. I will walk a separate path from you now. Away from you. Stop it already. The more you insult me. The more you hurt me. I get it now. You hate me. So.... Leave me alone to sulk about it. This is the last time you'll ever c me....