No one is good

The world.... is filled with miscreants.
Everyone lies... i too admit, i lie... all of us lie in order 2 live. But the funny thing is dat we all hu lie rily rily wish to noe the truth. its so ironic.

Sometims i wonder - y shud we all be like this. Y cant we juz live peacefully without lying 2 each other, but now i truly noe dat nothing good will come even if tell the truth. U all will juz use lies 2 cover up evrything again... so wats the point in telling the truth. I'd rather lie with evryone else. I'm not the one hu is wrong here, the world is.

'Juz bcoz evry1 is doin it. Doesn't mean its right' dats wat my pastor alwiz reminded me. Well my answer is 'so wat'. I noe its wrong but it doesnt mean i cant do it... If the world is divided among the good n the evil. I'd rather b the evil one, slick n arrogant than the good, naive n dumb. My dream - escape death. Hu says u cant play God. He doesnt even look at you. How can he control u?

So many ppl juz come n go in my life. I dont even care anymore. Y do work so hard even if i noe kindness will never be repayed? So now... I decided. No more crying over them. No more treating them good. No more Mr. Nice Guy. I will wear my mask once again. But this time i wont take it off. I'll do my best... My trademark fake smile never failed me.

I will do wat ever it take 2 climb 2 the top. Even if it means to stoop down n licking ur shoes. For one day, i will be up there resting my feet upon ur back.

Call me watever u want..... this is wat u truly feel bout myself. So sue me, hate me, u r not the only one hu orady does. I've made countless enemies. But for my future, i will try 2 chnge those enemies 2 comrades, or wat i refer 2 as tools....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (note: this is an evil laugh, not a laugh of those hu r humoured over a joke or sumtin)

Everlasting love? I just wanted to be a better man for you

Wrote this song out of boredom, i noe it sux.... I called it 'guess u found a better man'

Verse#1:

It's been a month, since dat day,

U rejected me and walked away,

tot i could give up on her and just look 2 u.

but u turned me down,

juz like her,

i knew it was too soon,

6 years of loving her, i tot i can do this 2 u too.

but my heart is wavering, n i noe this just wont do

i no longer know, wat shud i do

shud i stick 2 u or juz go on

i guess it's not only up 2 you

Chorus:

It hurts,

C'in u by my side, yet u dont feel the same as i do

It hurts,

Noe'in the truth that u don't like me the way i like u

It hurts,

that i can't let go of u

i tot we had sumtin special

but i guess u noe, a real real better man....

Verse#2:

Do u thnk im wasting my time,

alwiz disturbin u,

but i noe deep down that i stil love u

u might c me wif some other girls

but it juz aint true

coz im basically askin more bout u

there ain't no more uncertainty

n u can no longer stop me,

coz i rily refuse 2 give up just like dat

cant stand this loneliness

cant stop this feelin

Chorus:
It hurts,
C'in u by my side, yet u dont feel the same as i do
It hurts,
Noe'in the truth that u don't like me the way i like u
It hurts,
that i can't let go of u
i tot we had sumtin special
but i guess u noe, a real real better man...

a real real better man...

Bridge:

gave up,

found 1,

reject,

turned around.

turned down,

walk around,

gave in2 dis feelin now

gave up,
found 1,
reject,
turned around.
turned down,
walk around,
gave in2 dis feelin now~~

Chorus:

It hurts,

C'in u by my side, yet u dont feel the same as i do

It hurts,

Noe'in the truth that u don't like me the way i like u

It hurts,

that i can't let go of u

tot we had sumtin special

but i guess u noe, a real real better man

i guess u noe, a real real better man...

©Copyright by misopsychia

Got into 'KaiBao'isme

Haih... stil havnt got in2 dis blogging stuff. but at least i'll try... anyway. 2day was damn freakin tiring day.. 2 teachers got pissed off at our class. One lectured us and we listen and continued studyin n blah blah blah... The other juz couldn't stand us n keep threathenin us by saying:" I'll do it. I'll fill in in the blue card!!!" Most of the us basically wouldnt bother bout it since our reputation went down the drain.

But if i were our teachers, i would haf freakin killed myself. Even i can't stand my class. It's damn different from the previous classes i've been b4. Their active... but in a negative sorta way. but at least i haf a few frenz.


Friend#1 Tje Khei:
1st guy i'd tried 2 understand in my class coz he sits next 2 me. I seriously dno how his name is rily pronounced, i dun call his name often anyway. Even if i do i'll juz call him JK. He's annoying. FREAKIN ANNOYING!!!! but i've faced worse. I noe howta deal wif this kinda person. He's not ur average guy wif bad grades. HE'S UR AVERAGE GUY HU NOES HOWTA PLAY ELEC!!! Well.... he keeps insulting me dat my voice stinks n ask me 2 major in bass guitar than b'in a vocalist. haih.... I thnk i sang pretty well on last saturday's audition (our band din get the part, not surprised). But i thnk dat god put him in2 my life 2 make it more exciting. Well... NEWS FLASH GOD!! I DUN WAN THIS!! but since he's in my life now, i juz gotta cope wif him.


Friend#2 Kien Ping:
This guy is sum1 i wish i never knew. One word. IRRITATING!!!! At 1st he juz cums n harasses me n says dat im 'pro' or some sort. I'M NOT DAT CLEVER!!!! STOP COMING NEAR ME!!! y cant he go 2 nicholas(our class no.1) or sumtin. hm.... mayb he is gay or sumtin. lol. juz kiddin. Anyway. i thnk he thnks of me as a rival. He wants 2 surpass me. I noe how its feel. I used 2 be that kinda guy 2. but i learned that it will oni make my frens get annoyed over me. So.... i kept quiet n dat brings us 2 the me i am 2day. Quiet & Calm. A figure i'm trying 2 b. It's a gud thing he found sum1 else 2 harass - Friend#5


Friend#3 Weng Ken:
He's cool. Has a birth mark on the bridge of his nose. Hmm... Dun rily noe him. But we haf sumthin in common - WE BOTH LIKE CODE GEASS. NOTE: code geass is one of the best anime i've ever witnessed. IT'S A MUST SEE ANIME. He reads.... Novels!!!! OMG. I hate reading. Dno y. Juz hate books wif no pics. Makes me wanna pengsan lar. He's amazing. He looks like a guy wif no life. N guess wat.. ITS TRUE!!!! sry Weng Ken. But juz gotta tell de truth. I rily am sry. But i treat u like my anime buddy orady. BUDDY!! (its very rare 2 get an anime buddy lately, so... thx)

Code Geass [From left: Kallen, Suzaku, C.C., Lelouch]

Friend#4 RAYMOND!!!!!:
U r cool. Seriously.... I can't blief u got a girl so easily.. its like u got a genie goin:" hey, i can make dat girl in ur tuition like u." N then u might go:" prove it". Then, the genie wass so pissed, he went *poof*. N the Next thing u noe, this girl from ur tuition center cums 2 u n say:" RAYMOND!! I LIKE U!!!


HAHAHA!! jokin jokin. But seriouly u r cool. U draw. U DRAW!!!! n it rox....... hate it when ppl rock more than me..haha. thx 4 workin wif me on my story even though i havnt got the time 2 thnk bout the story line yet. i promise u. when i haf the time, i will cum up wif an amazing story line 4 u. Seriously.


Wat's more bout ray, u ask? Well... HE'S MY JESTER aka class clown. We started tokin coz he introduced me to russell peters. i tell ya. u wont regret c'in it. i couldnt stop laughin. we even tried imitating him. Anyway.. u light my life. tq too.... Here's the link 2 russell

http://youtube.com/watch?v=24Ryj1ywoqw

....

After skul, i went 4 duty wif the usual gang.... they r the oni ones that makes me feel like my existence is worthwhile.. anyway... after eatin lunch at 'yi poh guy fan', we went 2 buy sum stuff at 7-11. N a bastard from QM[i noe him] came up 2 me n said:" Hey. GENE. got chnge 4 RM5."well... I had some so i gave it 2 him. he chnge 1 RM5 wif my 5 RM1. After that, i went n payed 4 the pringles i wanted. RM5.20. Took 20 cents n slipped it in the RM5 i juz recieved n gave it 2 the cashier.

The cashier said the most retarded thing i've ever heard:"OOOOHHHHH!!! NNNOOOOO!!! Pandai lar. Budak tadi itu. Tukar wang dengan u. Eh! Awak tak boleh bayar dengan RM5 yang koyak ini lar. I was like:"wtf, ive just been conned". Well... me n the other lps's went 2 chnge the money at CIMB

After that, we went duty... After duty was when the fun began. I broke my vow 2 nvr do dis 2 any1 but ... i couldnt help myself...watch it lar.

18SX [Sorry, Jia Jie]

And my cookin last few days ago. vegetables n fried chicken

Before

During

After

VEGIES!!!!

Urgh.... GIF. I wonder what it stands for

Well.... 1st time doin this.... blog thingy... i wanted 2 tok bout de reason of my emo'ness but it juz ain'i suitable as this is my 1st post... so i'll juz make it in2 a diary

Overall has been a gud week. Dat fat asshole ain't in library lately. Said she's in Melaka 4 a kursus......YAAAY!!!!XD

But.... i stil couldn't stand that black puddle in her office. So i decided 2 clear it. guess how.... it was damn hard. i had 2 make myself cinderella!!!! it was fuckin pain on all of my limbs. had 2 squat down wif knee joints aching.

This ain't the 1st time im doin this though. did this every year during CNY in my hse... grandma juz couldn't stop yapping bout how she did it when she was young.

I juz went n scoop some water, poured GIF all over her floor n started scrubbing like a moron..... well... basically i was imagining dat fat ass' face on the floor the whole time..... OHHH!!! CRAP!!!! I HAVE BLISTERS ON MY HAND!!!

It doesn't hurt ;(

grr..... well... there's no one 2 blame but my self. haih.... anyway evryone whom saw me doin it, gave me the 'awww.... i pity u.' look. 4 a moment i was a bit happy dat i could be of some use.... but in the end, i would juz thnk dat 'i dunnid ur pity, this is my job'....

Been doin this since last thursday.... n i stil thnk i wanna do more 2 clean the library. i dno y, but i find it a pleasure in doin these kinda stufff... sum ppl might be thnkin "oh. he's doin it 2 stand out". well.. sorry if i offended u or sumtin but im juz thnkin of fullfillin my duties as the head of maintainance of the library. So there. Full stop. Nth else matters.

......

Came back early 2day.... din wanna stay coz i had tuition on 3pm. I tot my retarded grandpa would haf a least bought me my lunch.... but no... he had 2 ask my dad 2 do it... dat asshole (my dad)... he juz a lazy ass hu doesnt want 2 haf anythin 2 do wif chores. He bought 'yong tau fu'（杨豆腐).

That asshole ate as fast as he could n told me:" go do the dishes". I din rply. this was his plan all along. its alwiz been like dis. its not dat i dowanna do it.. i haf tuition damn it. its 2.45pm, i haf tuition around 3 and he asks me 2 wash the dishes in my skul uniform. Fine... i did it. I din wanna tok neither did i wanna argue wif him anyway. I did the dishes all right and left one. Guess whose one was it......XD. In the end i stil had tuition wif my uniform

BEAT THAT YA ASSHOLE!!!!

grandma couldn't stand right after operation which she went thru last month... so guess wat.. im cookin dinner 2nite after tuition.......XD..... Let's check out the fridge... WTF!!!!! NO MEAT!!!! Scared the crap out of me..... i was in the other fridge. lol. aunt said that she will teach me how 2 grill them 2nite....

washed the vegetables n cooked the rice, took the freezing meat outta the fridge...... stil waiting 4 her 2 return 2 teach me though... but by that time i gotta off9. it ain't gonna be pretty if she sees my on9 wif my uniform

Hmm... not so bad 4 my 1st post....... haha. Anyway hafta off9 now... waitin 4 my aunt 2 get back n teach me how 2 grill meat....

Emo... Why? Read lar.

Yo..... Okay... how shud i start this, erm....

Well.... My emo'ness all began when my ***king parents left my wif my grandparents after i was removed from my mom's uterus.

Sad, eh? Well.... It doesnt end
here.

My grandparents (especially grandma, ***king hate her) nvr ever cared bout me. All they care bout is how they can get more money from my parents which isn't possible 'cause my dad is leeching of my grandps's money as well...

Confusing, ain't it? Well... This take time 2 digest. Let me explain:

My family runs the plumbing business. U noe.... plumbers.. the one that fixes ur damn clogged toilets. yeah, that's us... Goodway plumbing. at ur service. Well... Anyway,The whole company consists of grandpa, dad and uncle(dad's younger bro).

[Grandpa's Story]
My grandpa had his 'zaman kegemilangan' back in the old days, where he made contracts wif erm... contractor duh... but he suddenly got in2 the wrong contract which made him lose few thousand RM. Since then, my fmly's been ***king poor cause damn scared 2 make contracts again.

[Dad's Story]
HE IS AN ASSHOLE. I DUN HAF 1!!!!!! Alchoholic (taught me how 2 drink too....), stubborn, brainless, a user, doesn't love his wife, tries 2 make ppl thnk he's happy and having a gud life wif his fmly but we all hate him. Well... lets begin. 1st of all, he alwiz drinks n drinks n drinks like there is no tmr. HEY!!!! I HAF SKUL TMR!!! DUN GET ***KING DRUNK OVER ME!!!

Then he is a stubborn n brainless guy. Nvr ever has he tot of the reasons behind my actions. Its not dat i dowanna study well... This is the best i got, ya ***hole. Enuf of those "study well n get overseas will ya", "dun cum back, we'll cum 2 u", "we lost all hope ur sis, ur bro aim't goin no where either, the rest is in ur hands". I hate his tone he uses when talkin 2 me.... HATE IT!!! It's like he noes more than me but he doesnt.

This moron has been using my uncles ever since they were kids. My dad would juz exploit evrythin from my uncle. Like the time he forced my uncle 2 do his homework while he went 2 play football. or the time my uncle bought his 1st motorbike, my uncle nvr even touched it. n my dad juz jump on it n drove thru the entire garden. Even now dat lazy bastards been pushing all his work 2 my uncle, using "i've got a wife n 3 kids" as an excuse............ heloooooo... grandpa... he doenst spend time wif us.

MOST OF THE TIME, he doesnt like me missing out on dinners, where his frens will join as well.... he says:" cum lar. we're a fmly...". HEY, U moron could haf said dat 2 me 15 years ago. It's too late. Ya' bastard. He claims money from my grandpa for evry expense. He NEVER bought anythin 4 me. My skul fees are 'sponsored' by my grandpa. My bags, my allowance, my com, my life, my everything.

See the guy wif his butt facing the camera. yeah... that my dad

[Uncle's Story]
Well.... He's quite gud at times. But bcoz of wat my dad did 2 him since young, there is a scar in his heart. Therefore, sometimes he juz goes berserk even though we dun c it. Dinnoe y n how he could put up wif my dad. Amazingly... he can stil smile under under all circumstances. In my whole fmly, i look up 2 him the most. FYI: Stil single... Haha. Thx 2 my dad, of coz. He alwiz gets home late from work.

Caught u emo'ing..haha (uncle)

HAIH..... no comment on my damn fmly ady. They juz basically quarrel everyday bcoz of this matter n many more. Im juz lazy 2 type... haha... its hard 2 continue living happily under these kinda circumstances but im stil livin' since my uncle could do it too... so i try... 2 smile.. everyday =]

Here's a dumb video 2 light up my day. Two dumbasses playing ping pong. Enjoy