In the end it was you

Why did you have to reply? It was around this time. We met. We started something. Our link began. Strangers to each other. But we now know that was then. This is now. There's no use looking back. My heart was torn apart.

6:32pm xxxxxxxx ﺕ
hm?i dont rmbr . :/

Happy CNY
bye

Those words were short and it rily hurt. It's now 1am and i am trying to forget about you. I cant slp. I dont think i will. I cant eat. The taste is all gone. I dun like it when i open my eyes coz you might be thinking of someone else already. But i know one thing for sure. We could never go back to that moment anymore.

We Met Again

You vanished before my very eyes. Leaving nothing but despair. I love you. I cried. U replied me after so long. I feel so tired. So heavy. Should i continue carrying? I dno. The wings of hatred is cleansed in your presence. I love you. The way we 1st held each other was in my mind. How much u changed. but i know i havnt. Nothing's gonna change my love for you. One thing you can be sure of, I nvr asked for more than your love. mayb my expectations of you were to high. Im sorry. I love you. its my fault but i rily ..... never did let go of you

Came Back

Sad. The only thing that came into my mind as I reached home. I din say another word. I din care. I drank. I never tot that NS was better. I hate this feeling. Will all be okay tmr? I..... hate... I scream. I gave away. Can someone shoot me now? I wanna go back NS. But moreover i wanna go back skul and clear things up.

Let the grief in your heart spread like a flower. Sadness
shall fall like thunder

Life is good

Tired... but happy for being tired. Working makes one numb. I dismantled a metal shelf that Uncle Richie asked me too. He shorten it up. I learned many things 2day. I went to many places. It felt like Pastor David was right next to me again. Though not a specific care, but I begin to feel accepted there. I'll prove my worth while and see how things work out. I'd love to be a permanent kuli there. Nights.

Working

Sorry Uncle Richie and Aunt Susan. I know i can't do much but move stuff. So please do order me around more. I'll try not to c avatar during breaks. Haih.... Salary will be nice but i really dont need it. Well... the washing machine really stinked man. One day I'll come over and help you rearrange evrything. I promise.

Back to the illusion. After Avatar: The Last Air Bender, it'll be Digimon. I dont care. Nights